The images in the series Once I had a Seed are a response to my own personal experience and a sort of visual diary. The images explore the complexities of body autonomy, and the stigmas surrounding abortion.
Sigmas of shame and silence. Complex religious and cultural persecution. The current state of questionable political stances and human rights in relation to laws and cultural perceptions.
Reaching into the subconscious mind and heart, the images are an exploration of the innermost areas of the female psyche.
Over 180,000 abortions take place every year in the UK, with statistics showing that 1 in every 3 women in the UK will have an abortion at some point within her lifetime. However, in 2019 there is still very much a stigma and silence that surrounds the extremely complex and personal decision.
Throughout my image making process, I have drawn inspiration from Clarissa Pinkola Estés' Women Who Run With the Wolves, dissecting the women's role as simultaneous life bringer and La Huesera, bone woman.
The images seek to dissect the opposing realities that surround women and pregnancy. The clinical environment of doctors instruments, surgeons tables and 'modesty' cloths. In contrast to the intricate fears and desires of the woman's heart and mind, and the magical nature that ties women intrinsically to the creation of life.
After the loss of control over my own body, a period of physical, artistic and spiritual isolation, the images in Once I Had a Seed are part of a process of reclamation over my own body and mind.
The work is ongoing...